Damon Lindelof ‘Shocked and Appalled’ Over ‘Lost’ Racism and Toxic Workplace Allegations: ‘I Failed’ to Provide Safety and Comfort

Lost showrunners Damon Lindelof and Carlton Cuse confront several accusations of racism, toxicity and more that allegedly occurred during the making of the ABC hit series in Maureen Ryans new book, Burn It Down, an excerpt of which has been published on Vanity Fairs website. In the excerpt, Lindelof admits that he failed in regards to providing safety and comfort in the shows writers room.

Several writers and actors spoke to Ryan about the alleged toxic work environment on Lost, which ran for six seasons on ABC from 2004-2010. Harold Perrineau, who starred as Michael Dawson in the first two seasons of Lost, spoke bluntly about his white co-stars getting the shows major storylines. As he put it, It became pretty clear that I was the Black guy. Daniel [Dae Kim] was the Asian guy. And then you had Jack and Kate and Sawyer.

A writer on the show said that the Lost writing staff was repeatedly told that white characters Locke (Terry OQuinn), Jack (Matthew Fox), Kate (Evangeline Lilly) and Sawyer (Josh Holloway) were the hero characters and that nobody cares about these other characters. Just give them a few scenes on another beach.

Perrineau said he once flagged his concerns to a Lost producer about the shows white cast members being prioritized over cast members of color, be it on screen or during photo shoots. He said he told the producer, I dont have to be the first, I dont have to have the most episodes but Id like to be in the mix. But it seems like this is now a story about Jack and Kate and Sawyer.

According to Perrineau, the producer told him that this is just how audiences follow stories. The producer allegedly added that Locke, Jack, Kate and Sawyer were relatable.

Perrineau said he later went to Cuse to voice concerns about a script in which his character, Michael, only expressed worry about his missing child once during the episode.

I cant be another person who doesnt care about missing Black boys, even in the context of fiction, right? Perrineau said. This is just furthering the narrative that nobody cares about Black boys, even Black fathers.

After flagging his concerns and just a few weeks ahead of filming the Lost Season 2 finale, Perrineau said Cuse announced that Michael would not be returning to the show.

I was fucked up about it. I was like, Oh, I just got fired, I think, Perrineau says. I was like, Wait a minute, whats happening? [Cuse] said, Well, you know, you said to us, if we dont have anything good for you, you want to go. I was just asking for equal depth.

Several Lost writers told Ryan that Cuse and Lindelof tolerated or even encouraged the overall atmosphere behind the scenes, which allegedly included frequent racist and toxic remarks.

Monica Owusu-Breen, a writer on Lost Season 3, and other writers said the only Asian-American writer on staff was routinely called Korean instead of by a real name. In another instance, a writer who was adopting an Asian child was allegedly told by another writer that no grandparent wants a slanty-eyed grandchild. Lindelof also allegedly addressed Perrineaus exit in front of writers by saying he called me racist, so I fired his ass.

Everyone laughed [when Lindelof said that], Owusu-Breen said. There was so much shit, and so much racist shit, and then laughter. It was ugly. I was like, I dont know if theyre perceiving this as a joke or if they mean it. But it wasnt funny. Saying that was horrible.

All I wanted to do was write some really cool episodes of a cool show. That was an impossibility on that staff, Owusu-Breen told Ryan earlier. There was no way to navigate that situation. Part of it was they really didnt like their characters of color. When you have to go home and cry for an hour before you can see your kids because you have to excise all the stress youve been holding in, youre not going to write anything good after that.

Owusu-Breen also recalled writing the episode in which Adewale Akinnuoye-Agbajes Mr. Eko was killed off.

Carlton said something to the effect of, I want to hang him from the highest tree. God, if we could only cut his dick off and shove it down his throat, Owusu-Breen said. At which point I said, You may want to temper the lynching imagery, lest you offend. And I was very clearly angry.

Lost writer Javier Grillo-Marxuach told Ryan he quit after Season 2 because of the shows toxic work environment. He described the writers room as a predatory ecosystem with its own carnivorous megafauna.

Writer-producer Melinda Hsu Taylor added, Damon once said, I dont trust any writer who isnt miserable, because that tells me you dont care.' She started leaving eyeliner in her desk drawer because you dont want to have to go to the bathroom to redo your eyeliner. If you cry at work, you dont want people to see that youve been crying.

Lindelof responded to the many accusations in two separate interviews with Ryan conducted for the book.

My level of fundamental inexperience as a manager and a boss, my role as someone who was supposed to model a climate of creative danger and risk-taking but provide safety and comfort inside of the creative process I failed in that endeavor, Lindelof said.

[Hollywood tokenism is] what I saw in the business around me, he continued. And so I was like, okay, as long as there are one or two [writers] who dont look and think exactly like me, then, then Im okay. I came to learn that was even worse. For those specific individuals, forget about the ethics or the morality involved around that decision, but just talking about the human effect of being the only woman or the only person of color and how you are treated and othered I was a part of that, a thousand percent.

Lindelof said he did not recall ever saying the fire his ass comment about Perrineau, though he added, What can I say? Other than it breaks my heart that that was Harolds experience. And Ill just cede that the events that youre describing happened 17 years ago, and I dont know why anybody would make that up about me.

Expanding on Perrineaus concerns with the show prioritizing its white characters, Lindelof said, Every single actor had expressed some degree of disappointment that they werent being used enoughThat was kind of part and parcel for an ensemble show, but obviously there was a disproportionate amount of focus on Jack and Kate and Locke and Sawyer the white characters. Harold was completely and totally right to point that out. Its one of the things that Ive had deep and profound regrets about in the two decades since. I do feel that Harold was legitimately and professionally conveying concerns about his character and how significant it was that Michael and Walt with the exception of Rose were really the only Black characters on the show.

Lindelof said he was shocked and appalled and surprised by the allegations coming from the shows writers.

I just cant imagine that Carlton wouldve said something like that, or some of those attributions, some of those comments that you [shared] Im telling you, I swear, I have no recollection of those specific things, Lindelof said. And thats not me saying that they didnt happen. Im just saying that its literally baffling my brain that they did happen and that I bore witness to them or that I said them. To think that they came out of my mouth or the mouths of people that I still consider friends is just not computing.

Cuse issued his own statement regarding the many offensive comments that were allegedly said: I deeply regret that anyone at Lost would have to hear them. They are highly insensitive, inappropriate and offensive.

It breaks my heart to hear it. Its deeply upsetting to know that there were people who had such bad experiences, Cuse also said. I did not know people were feeling that way. No one ever complained to me, nor am I aware that anybody complained to ABC Studios. I wish I had known. I would have done what I could to make changes.

Read the full excerpt from Ryans Burn It Down: Power, Complicity, and a Call for Change in Hollywood on Vanity Fairys website. The book is now available for pre-order and releases June 6.