My name is Ivan, I am 20 years old, I suffer from neurosis
I often have panic attacks
I was never afraid to die, but when I realized I had something to lose,
The fear of death has become simply terrifying
I of course understand, that the fear of death - this is foolish, after all death is inevitable
We're all going to die - that's a fact
You just have to accept it,
But when you're halfway to your goal, you start to get out of poverty
When everything you dreamed of starts to come true
I don't really want to die, really.
Since childhood, I wanted to be recognized, paid attention,
But I couldn't do it.
In school I was considered a freak, with other people I was cruel
My parents wanted to deprive of parental rights, and hand me over to a children's home
Put in Borstal, to sew me something to do
I was a troubled teenager
I swear the music saved me
And the people who were around, supported all my endeavors
My family, the people in whom my blood flows
My loyal fans, by the way, I also consider family
Once at the autograph session in Penza I was approached by a boy
Well years 1416 and asked him to sign the poster as "there is no hope"
I signed and crossed out those words because I want everyone to
Know: there is hope!