what i am lyrics

[Verse 1: thebreathingbackwards]

I've been faded in the basement, contemplating

All the places I escape to gotta face it

I'm erasing faces from my brain just to replace it

'Cause I got so much pain in here that only I've created

Man, I just don't know if I can do this anymore

I shut the fucking door on everyone that I adore

And only wants to watch me soar

I'm starting wars with the help that I've been looking for

So I don't have to swim ashore and ruin who I've guarantored

[Pre-Chorus: guardin]

I think I'll stop breathing

(Stop breathing)

Run away just to escape all my demons

(Escape all my demons)

You don't know how I'm feeling but

The pressure on my back got me crying for no reason

[Chorus: guardin and thebreathingbackwards]

I'm a mess inside a body of a man

Implementing pain inside my brain is all I can

Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand

Life is full of fuck-ups and I know just what I am

Yeah I know just what I am

[Verse 2: thebreathingbackwards]

Mute my sound, let me drown, I'm not calming down

I think it's over now, like king without a fucking crown

My throne's been thrown around, and time's still slowing down

I'll take it as a sign to barricade and wreck my proper noun

It only hurts, with every verse, I think I'm fucking cursed

Tell me it gets better, I'll feel worse, yeah that shit's rehearsed

I'm too perverse to smiles, so I'm breathing in reverse

Tryna lure my lungs to burst and bodybag me in a hearse

[Pre-Chorus: guardin]

I think I'll stop breathing

(Stop breathing)

Run away just to escape all my demons

(Escape all my demons)

You don't know how I'm feeling like

The pressure on my back got me crying for no reason

[Chorus: guardin and thebreathingbackwards]

I'm a mess inside a body of a man

Implementing pain inside my brain is all I can

Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand

Life is full of fuck-ups and I know just what I am

Yeah I know just what I am

[Verse 3: guardin]

What I am is a prodigy

(Is a prodigy)

I'm a full metal alchemist, using reverse psychology

To make myself believe that I am proud of me

(That I am proud of me)

But I hate my fucking face in all honesty

Honestly, I don't think I'll make it past twenty-six

(Past twenty-six)

Seven grams in the grinder, where's the fuck's the spliff?

Rollin' sticky 'cause I'm feeling like fucking shit

(Like fucking shit)

Separation anxiety's just a fucking trip

[Bridge: guardin and thebreathingbackwards]

I find it funny when you tell me that you care

You say that you love me but your love's not fair

Distancing yourself from the feelings I impair

If you wanna let me go, better tell me when and where

(When and where)