Waves lyrics

I can vaguely recall

The panic attacks I’d get when I was young

And how my lower back would ache

When my bottom rib stuck to my lung

How were they suppose to know

I wasn’t lying, crying wolf

All I wanted was a hug

All I got was 'stop your crying'

Pleasure died that day between the rusty swing set monkey bars—

The more I'd run from that the more

I found I never got too far

From an ugly memory just waiting to remind me

How naïve and vulnerable I was before my eyes could see us dying

Out of tune out off touch nothing new just not enough

Never thought there’d come a day where I’d consider giving up

I’ve hit the ground been down and out before but never for this long..

It’s never been so hard to force my head Up

When it rains it pours… I lay my face it drifts away

I know that this isn’t me… I know who I want to be

All that I’ve been working for suddenly means nothing Now

Build a castle watch it crumble no more walls –a dummy’s smile

Waves crashing pulling shore

Lifting—drenched weeping—sore

WAVES CRASHING WAVES—shore

I find myself spending time trying to figure out whats wrong

Instead of taking time to cry and reflecting all alone

All day long it's almost gone I can feel it in my gut

What I've done who I was who I am and why I run…

I took a test, took a guess

It was wrong—I made it up, made it right

I know I'll die, its quite alright

I know I’m strong, makes me cry… keep it in 'til I can’t

That’s the problem I have yet to figure out how to adapt to sudden trauma

Something's wrong-there's something here

Something I can’t be a part of, left out

I want the lead, what is this for?

I help the world, I hurt it more

Watch it bleed, need forgiveness

Oh, I'm sorry, over confident

Contrived, cuz I'm still trying to hide my flaws

Waves crashing pulling shore

Lifting—drenched weeping—sore

WAVES CRASHING WAVES—shore

I watch the cheetah chase its prey-

I look away she licks the blood

I cried until I watched her lay and feed it to her little cub-

I'm not sure what I need but this isn’t what I want

My decisions tire me

Wiring got tied knots

Witnessing a murder is half the reason why

I feel half alive, unsure concerned with

With why we have to die

I know that this isn’t fair but in time will we find out

Exactly how we wound up here

And why our insides cry out loud

I'm a cloud, vapor child …

You can’t count on me right now

I'm dissolving

Falling slowly, fading hope I make it out

Sink or drown

Get back up make a path, take a walk

Grab my partner by the hand ask her if she’d like to come…. gotta go

It's okay, save the rest for in between

No mistake could take the place of lessons learned

Chase or flee

Waves crashing pulling shore

Lifting—drenched weeping—sore

WAVES CRASHING WAVES—shore

Nature has its way with me it takes what I call mine

From six feet deep climbing up out to cloud nine

No direction in my sense turned my world from out to in

Side—lies head

Its my world—it’s the end

Let me spin back in control

New beginning—hole I left

Feels a lot more like my home

Something I’ve learned to accept

Higher float—low I get

There no fence

Clear as day

Comes in waves

Glad you’re here

Reconnecting with my birth

Gaining faith, painting fear, aging aches

Tasting love-making love—tasting tears

Making war, waging-it—breaking up

Perfect picture timing naked—making it

Facing it now

Waking up

Shore