Was wenn doch Part 5 [English translation]

And look at me, everything is okay!

The scars on my body have a story to tell

But this time they tell you a last time

The scars tear open and show how hurt I was

I felt how I died

And despite the pain I said that I was okay with it

I have lied so you feel better

But when I went to bed, the walls that stand like a fortess broke

I don't want to talk anymore, I want to sleep

I just want to die, in order to wait till the life starts from new

I want to hang everything I have on a nail and go

I don't want to say who I am, I want to show them what I miss

I want to show them how I stood there and I slowly burnt my heart

And then watched it until I only had ash in my hand

I want to show them what happend, when you take everything from someone

How miserably I cried until I finally deceased from it

I gave her my heart, but she didn't want it

I gave her everything, even though I knew it didn't mean anything to her

I was young, I was a good-for-nothing

And in addition I was a guy who was constantly sad

I put so much hope in every spark

If tears wouldn't dry at some point, I would have drowned long ago

I was so stupid and naive

Almost foolish to think "Everything is okay, crisis are just like that", so recklessnessly

I wasn't blind, I just looked away

Rather get f*cked over than, in the end, be alone in the mud

Rather say nothing when, in the end, it could be the truth

Rather say nothing when, in the end, it could be the truth

I was confused, she was my maze

And we got lost, because we confused us mutually

We built castles made of granite

on quicksand and were surprised that it crumbled

Because every dream that I furfilled, was like poision for my own

Rapped help calls out loud, but nobody was there, who reached them

I wrote texts full of desperation, because I was kind of alone

Then I wrote texts about suicide and fifty thousand clapped applause

I was nothing in their presence, then everything was just sound and smoke

I was so broke, give me a rope and I hang myself!

I hate this world and everything on it

I will just need some more scars and no shit, then I will go ballistic

I wanted to be not a nobody for her, just once

For this woman that didn't even knew how to spell love

this woman, who told everyone that I was an asshole

Told from the person, who in the end only saw herself

Maybe you are right and it is redundant

to tell me, what love is, even though you never felt it

To tell me, I was the one, who never felt it

And then at the end pretend that you never knew the other

All of these masks that we wore were so ugly

Nobody showed how hurt the other is

Nobody wanted to see, how even the mirror broke our future

And if someone would ask me these days, I would say that you were a mistake

Then because of you I spent every night without sleeping

And was awake all nights, to ask myself, if this is it (if it's over)

I was shattered from the inside and there was nobody who saw it

I wanted to drive to god, but I couldn't pay for the ticket

I had hate for this world, even though only you alone deserved it

Because you dealt with my feelings as if it were a playground

But I never was able to blame you, because I'm not so important

But just wait - Karma will come and will f*ck you properly!

Every tear, that I cried, you get back a thousandfold stronger

Every line, that I felt, steals you your breath until you suffocate

Every step that I took in the direction of the bridge you will have to walk inevitably with me now

Then the next thing that comes now, will break us our necks, because

When you are happy now, please yourself and f*ck you!

The whole world should hear, what really was and happend

They can know, how I said that I was down

And how I said "I want to jump down" when I was on the bridge

Say it, how you supported me when I was sick in bed for days!

How I laid crying in bed while you danced around in discos!

Say, how I am a egoist, because slowly I'm really outraged

how to woman, who only saw my money, really says, that she thinks I'm crazy

But today this will end, so that everyone outside knows

Take away my rap, if you want, but this won't change anything about our time together

It will not change that what I'm writing, even though it seems like it sometimes

But even the tracks, that you are blocking now, won't wash your soul pure, do you hear me?

I don't care if this will be my last song,

but when I go, then I swear by god, I will not go alone

So let this be my last song,

because I would rather die, than fall in love with you again!