If my voice should go quiet, my tones disappear, I got myself to blame
The ego is calling me, I've sensed how it feels to be honoured
Is that supposed to be your driving force, turn back time
Look at the hunger, that got me into music to begin with
Got a pressure over my chest sometimes, feels like it's stuck
Calmly breathing, I've almost begun to think that it's my punishment
For my unbelievable laziness, my will often fails
My music is my muse, but she gets treated poorly
But I take out a pen and write yet another line
Spilling out my feelings on my page
Because whenever I look back, music has always been my support
And should I fail it will probably be my most beautiful defeat
Refr.
We're human so we're allowed mistakes
Suddenly everything happens and it turned out like it did
And you are my most beautiful defeat
And I'm proud of it
But are you proud of it?
Of course I'm proud of it
My eyes are leaking and there's a smell of burning, my glance is empty
Won't get up from bed for some nice weather and a piece of sun
What is everyone singing about? Some kind of notorious courage
No, let me punish myself in peace, what a clever approach
Although I know, I still wonder what's wrong with me
Put myself in the situation when I I chose to play the game
Superior opponent, still I I chose to play it
Was so madly in love that it hurt just looking at you
What I mean is,[we were] never meant to be of the same species
Within time you became awful and I turned out the same
No more you and me, my own choice after all
Turned my eyes away from the beautiful, a necessary defeat
Refr.
She moved to the capitol
From Norrland1 she went
Early eighties
Got a job, arranged a living
She already had her sister there
And before you knew it she had changed town and career
But what did she discover
Love was lurking around the corner
It usually does
She fell madly in love, head over heels
In a lovable man
If you hear this he will at least know there were feelings involved
Once upon a time, different present moments
He said there would never be anyone else
She said the same
Two years later they had a child together
But something was about to happen, he wasn't the one he used to be
Treated her like a dirtbag treats his woman
How would she dare, but promised herself
That her child would never grow up in such a home
Left pain, left fear, left him
Moved back to Norrland and left Stockholm
She and her son alive, a struggle to overcome
And she did and became the strongest woman in the world
Single with her own child
And she made sure that it would never turn into a defeat
Refr.
1. The northern area of Sweden