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Dear Matthew,

I like you a lot.

I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now,

And I respect that.

I'd like you to know that if you're ever single in the future

And you want to come, visit me in California,

I would be open to spending time with you

And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song.

Dear Jonathan,

I liked you too much.

I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me

And think solely about themselves,

And you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time.

I used to say, "The more tragic, the better!"

The truth is, whenever I think of the early '90s,

Your face comes up with a vengeance, like it was yesterday.

Dear Terrence,

I love you muchly.

You've been nothing but open-hearted and emotionally available and supportive,

And nurturing, and consummately there for me!

I kept drawing you in and pushing you away;

I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time.

You were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself!

What was wrong with me???

Dear Marcus,

You rocked my world!!!

You had a charismatic way about you with the women,

And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality...

And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass!

But I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you, though,

And that stopped us from going any further than we did.

And it's kind of too bad because we could have had much more fun!!!

Dear Lou,

We learned so much.

I realize we won't be able to talk for some time,

And I understand that, as I do you.

The long-distance thing was the hardest, and we did as well as we could;

We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives!

I will always have your back and be curious about you;

About your career and your whereabouts...