Und was ist jetzt? [English translation]

I hear you like yesterday speaking the words

That you and I are something special

Way too beautiful to forget, thanks God that I can see

We can’t measure you with words,

It is not enough for you that you violate but you have to shred hearts,

You were gentle with me and said how much you felt love,

That there is no one that understands your heart as I do

That you would never consider anyone else,

Regardless if the day may come when you have doubts

Because we two together are to strong for arguments

You swore loyalty and more you said that you would forgive me,

You said that you would be there, but as you went away what was left for me,

You said that you would save and comfort me,

You would help me, you said you would fulfill

And replace what I can’t be,

You swore that you would be there during lucky and panic times,

You swore you would give stability,

But when I fall I am just numb,

You swore you would be the one for me until I die,

To be the mother of my children and will stay by me through good and bad

And what happens now,

For I am only some ex,

What happens now,

You give a shit if I rap about you

What happens now,

You see but simply turn the other way

Am I easy to forget,

Am I replaced.

I tried everything, starting with the phone, email and letter,

To the point I began to despair and started writing about you,

You blocked everything, that’s why all sorrow remained in my head

Cause I could not tell anyone, I dropped it and wrote it down,

My mum even cried, she heard it and understood

That in the end, each rhyme that I wrote was screaming your name,

Every Valentine’s Day, birthday and New Year,

Flowers and cards but regardless I could do nothing but wait restlessly,

If you take mercy sometime and and give me answers to my questions,

Which bust my head, which I promised once I will carry high

I also promised to remain with you,

But nothing is broken, although it was not as easy for me as for you

Stashed away and hidden, I was wrong about you

You are too weak and comfortable to stand

By what you’ve said or just to take consideration

You have abandoned me, the fault is on you

So come on and take care of the growing selfishness

What is happening with forever love

With big plans for a life together,

The togetherness, our dreams and all that time

They will fade like nothing, I’m an optimist but hope is abandoning me

Don’t just let me hang here, don’t you at least feel hate for me?

I can’t understand you anymore, no matter how hard I try

You are no longer the one that was with me, that woman died miserably,

Now you have to nerve to say, you want to move where I am

Am I looking like a clone, you can’t order me around and threaten my being,

You’re thinking everything is super easy between us, all is super nice,

All that it takes is a little notice and everything will be cool and settled,

But babe I am sorry but this here is not your turf

And after all this time, ten minutes of small talk and smiles is just not enough,

And don’t tell me anything about your new man, what happens, I am supposed to be glad

Applause that you are better, I feel lousy, I cry

Every night I wake up socked in sweat

Cause no telling if you have ever loved me

Because I feel none of that shit