Ultimamente [Últimamente] [English translation]

Lately I’ve been somewhat lost,

they have overcome me, old ghosts,

new routines

And on every corner lurks a thief

to rob me of the gems, the memories,

the joys.

For awhile now

I always arrive late

to all my appointments.

And life seems to me a party

to which no one

has bothered to invite me.

For awhile now,

it is so hard for me, so hard, so hard not to love you,

not to love you

Lately I’ve been a bit unhinged

so keep yourself safe, because in this state

I'm going kind of crazy.

And I’m enamored of dangerous women

full of hugs,

full of lies.

For awhile now, in my own love something is missing,

you have left it several points

below that of Kafka

And life seems to me a party

to which no one

has bothered to invite me.

For awhile now,

it's been so hard, so hard, so hard

it is so hard not to love you.

Lately I’ve been planning a flight [1]

to redo my life

probably on Mars.

I’m sure that there, there is no one bent on advising me,

“Ismael, what’s happening to you?

You don’t study, you don’t work."

And what are we going to do about it

if lately I've been a bit lost,

if I need you.

For awhile now,

it's been so hard, so hard, so hard

it is so hard not to love you.

They must come, better times,

I’ll make more mistakes, I’ll give fewer excuses

And I’ll write [make] new songs

In which I tell you how, lately,

they are so frequent, sad dawns

drowning my endings

Repetitive, tired,

miserable

full of loneliness [2]

If for awhile now

it is so hard, so hard,

so hard, not to love you.

[1] In the sense of "flee".

[2] This is a plural noun, so literally "lonelienesses" or "solitudes."