Time to Myself lyrics

(Verse 1)

The solitude’s closing in. Where did I go wrong?

All I wanted was you, but I was just a fool along

I can hear all the laughs surrounding me

But they don’t understand, why my heart still beats

But maybe they’re right. I made a big deal

It was just puppy love, but to me it felt too real

So I sit in my room, in the heat, filled with gloom

I just wanna fly away, to the places I call my happy place

But I feel her in my mind, and I feel so dead inside

Why was I such a gullible freak? Why me?

I’m such a clown, and that’s all they see!

(Chorus)

I can’t control my feelings deep inside me

Where did I go wrong, how gullible can I be?

Everyone hates me, as I sit alone and dwell

Why do you avoid me?

Do I need time to myself?

(Verse 2)

The months go by, filled with rage, and immaturity

As I lose my common sense, and my inner purity

Bothersome, and annoying is all that they see

My reputation is fading, as they turn from me

So I count the remaining days, until I get mocked in my face

Friendship counts are very low, and relationships are at zero

And I can’t redeem myself

So I hide inside this cell, of shame and embarrassment inside

As I... wait for someone to bring me to life!

(Chorus)

I can’t control my feelings deep inside me

Where did I go wrong, how gullible can I be?

Everyone hates me, as I sit alone and dwell

Why do you avoid me?

Do I need time to myself?

(Bridge)

Hate me, degrade me

Reject me, deflect me

In the end, my heart’s a dying flame

Joy gone, innocence gone

Luck gone. Love gone

From now one, what I had will never stay

Things will never be the same

Things will never be the same

All alone she is gone

I’m a mess, in the wrong

I’ve been so tested, rejected

Gullible in the head, my own foolishness leaving me in dread

And I’ll forever remain a clown

Brought down to the ground!

I guess I gotta stop trying!

I guess I’m better off alone

I guess I’m better off hiding!

In the crowd, afraid and lonely and feeling left out, the sadness showing

But I just try to put up a smile so I don’t get ridiculed through each mile I walk

God what’s my purpose? Why did you put me on this rock?

Why am I too afraid to talk

To everyone? I can’t keep fighting while hiding

I guess I’m better off hiding!

And things will never be the same!

Throughout this time to myself!