The Art of Forgiveness lyrics

I would build walls

For miles around me

Around anything that hurt

Any sensitive category

Kept love at an arm's-length

It was natural to me

You did not agree

You said things like "Unhealthy"

And I took on the task

Of changing my pattern

All you did was ask

And the walls all came crashing

At a welcoming speed

I was convinced you'd never hurt me

And I used to cling to the back of your mind

But I must have let go

At the moment in time

When she offered careless physical joy

Both bouncing my heart around

Like a cheap rubber toy

And after countless

Hours

Of crying

Trying to forgive you

Believe you

Grow a spine and leave you

Grieve you

I've come to this conclusion

No one prepares you when choosing to stay

How to dare share a bed again

Keep demons at bay

She took something precious

That was just meant for me

Not for her eyes to see

And I used to cling to the back of your mind

But you must have let go

At the moment in time

When she offered careless physical joy

Both bouncing my heart around

Like a cheap rubber toy

And after countless

Hours

Of crying

Trying to forgive you

Believe you

Grow a spine and leave you

Grieve you

And after countless

Hours

Of crying

Trying to forgive you

Believe you

Grow a spine and leave you

Grieve you

I've come to this conclusion

After all the years you invested in me

All the love, tears, and possibilities

I realize that if the tables were turned around

You wouldn't leave me now