Теряю голову [Teryayu golovu] [English translation]

I'm losing my mind and I keep wanting to see you naked

or at least top-less

or at least what the vacuum cleaner sees

when you clean the piece of carpet that's underneath the couch.

Or I'd like to be an experienced shaman

just to see you wherever you are

to get closer and to smell your hair.

The smell makes my heart goes six feet under and then into the sky

I imagine we're both laying in our underpants

somewhere in the forest between all the birch trees

you take my cock into your hand and squeeze it

but there is nothing but dreams. In real life

we've done nothing but eating in the right restaurants.

talked about murakami and that's all yes you got that there's no development

you're going to poland for a week and people say you're not going there alone; you're taking Gosha

antidepressants; i'm smoking a lot just so death doesn't touch me

i haven't seen you in weeks; you're surrounded by douchebags

you're not evading same-sex love; you spend your nights in different beds

i've stopped eating; prozac is a bad high; i don't have a weed connection

got no benzos; no fucking sleep; self-esteem is at zero; alcohol doesn't help

my conscience is fucked up; friends care way too much they say i'm rude to them.

When a person is in love, they just become an evil cadaver out of nowhere.

you can't look at it; that's way too sad. but destiny has blessed me

she's calling. two movie tickets. gotta be in time for a japanese animation.

i shave and i cut myself and shower and desodorant and weed and the cell phone

and an uber and the driver motherfucker i'm late she's waiting she's happy to see mee

dark cinema last row i dive into her hair

she's not resisting maybe she doesn't want to hurt me

the movie's ending; the hero's on the screen he's got that thin moustache

i kissed her on the lips; my finger's all wet under the panties

we're going to my place and it's too long too long we're making out on the backseat

we're talking i'm touching i'm whispering Olga i'm so hard i'm crazy

we're in the elevator i unhook her bra patiently

i hug her with one hand and open the door with another

we fall on the floor she's underneath me oh Lord

i feel her scent Olga touches my pelvis

well this is the happy end

we fucked all throughout the week-end