My [bed]room is a cage
The sun streams across my window
The suitors [knocking] at my door are like little soldiers
Come to take me away.
I don't want to work
I don't want to go out
I want only to forget
[and so it follows that] then I smoke.
I once knew the sweet perfume of love
And now a million roses won't even move me
Now even a single flower
Leaves me sick.
I'm not proud, this lifestyle will kill me,
[I know] it's great to be part of it all*
But I've never known it.
*("sympatique" in this context translates to a sense of empathy or connectedness with the world, the opposite of the self-imposed isolation she's here describing) (I think, anyway :)