It begins with a dark, glowing ember
Something black burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh, pain is the only thing I feel
Scars, all I see
Oh, no, the fire's burning my insides again
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason, leaving only ashes left
You will catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself
What I want to hear (What I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes
I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
What I see, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead
That is how I chose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me to the bone (To the bone)
I know it’s over, but I can’t go home tonight
But after this, I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain, and yet I’m still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward thought
My life’s a mess and I can’t find a way to fix it
I can't keep telling myself
What I want to hear (What I want to hear)
I can't just close my eyes
(My eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)
I know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best in me
What I see (What I see)
I don't want to believe (Want to believe)
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead
Calling, calling out (Calling out)
The darkest reaches of my soul
Are riddled with self-doubt
Crawling, crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice
When others would lay down
It’s only as dark as you make it
I know (I know)
That it's killing me (It's killing me)
And it's poisoning (It's poisoning)
The best of me (The best of me)
What I see (What I see)
I don't want to believe (Want to believe)
So let me tell you more, tell you more
About the lies I lead