Self-Inflicted Achromatic lyrics

I wanna be like you, I wanna say that I can

I wanna be the person that you think that I am

But even if I had it all come true like a dream

Is the person I came to be the really real me?

So young and simple, wishing like things would come true

Now as I am, I understand it’s best I die and soon

Just by living I’m hurting them another day

Hundreds cry, all I do is ruin everything

Nobody wanted me, no one there to need

If only I could live in that kind of world I dreamed

Just by leaving I’m helping them another day

Hundreds smile, all they do is laugh at everything

Nobody there to scream, no more being mean but see

Things like that would never happen for me

Day after day I found my way, sleepwalking through

Like this I’ll fade without a trace, it’s for the best I do

Just by living I’m nothing for another day

Hundred lives, never knowing me or anything

Nobody wanted me, no one there to need

Why would I wanna live in the kind of world I see?

Just by leaving I’m no one for another day

Hundred lives, never changing them or anything

Nobody there to scream, no more being mean to me

Then could I have it all back in one piece?

In the end, we’ll fall to the ground again

Over and over and never get up

In the end, the person they made in me

Breaking and breaking and never pick up

In the end, we’re leaving it all again

Over and over and never wake up

Just by living I’m bringing you another day

Why, just for me, can you smile after everything?

In the end, the smile you give to me

Right when I wanted to give it all up

And I really do wish that I didn’t

And all of the moments I tried

Just to die said goodbye

Just by leaving I’m no one for another day

Hundred lives, never changing them or anything

Somebody here to scream, someone here is stopping me

Why can’t I laugh it off the way that I’d dreamed?