His honor, I only wanted to tell you,
that today, tired of living
I´ve decided to take my final sick leave,
the eternal one, the proper one, I erase myself from the exchequer
and here in this very line I will tell you of the reason,
that makes me cut the deck:
Don´t think it´s a tragicomedy of love,
or that I have cancer and can´t bear the pain,
or that I refuse to go to a house for the elderly,
or that I lost my wits, or my sexual potency,
or I´m tight on money at the end of the mont, or this or that,
or other such things.
Brimming with health, in the best years of my life,
I´m doing perfectly fine in everything, except
for such a recalcitrant ennui,
that living is, for me, so insipid
that it irks me and drives me, His Honor,
to go off on a tangent.
What puts the final cherry on the icing, the cutting to the chase
is, no more and no less, than the famous opression,
undesrtood in the lax sense.
You know what I mean, what can I explain,
if here on this place, to pass judgement is to judge
and I´m surr you know your fair share of that.
If I were a women, a racial minority,
hardboiled christian, left-handed, homosexual,
from the Third World, constrcution worker, artist,
I could join in their revolution.
But not being one, mi adherence
feels sort of paternalist.
I can´t change my gender, or my skin,
mi atheism, my hands, my honeymoons,
become devoid of social class or pluck the lyre.
And even if I could, I know it wouldn´t be the same,
I wouldn´t be who I am, the main reason,
by which Yours Truly sighs.
And if I don´t know who I am, it´s naive,
to belive that if I hang myself I´ll be free,
other than to pick the rope with which I do the deed,
You are my killer! Yes, why wouldn´t you be?
You represent the law, you are a symbol of power,
"the power and those who invest themselves with it...".
Here I gre indignant, and in my letter to the bailiff,
-file this over there-, wouldn´t you believe it,
I wrote "invest" with "h", I wrote "invest" with "h".
And such mistypings, from some time ago,
I can´t bear them, they make me so mad...
guess I´m down in my lluck.