Part 1: PA Sports
When I look in the mirror today
it’s like I am caged
The hate is truly gone
‘cause I’ve got a pure heart
Just one thing
that I’m still ashamed of
and whenever I think of it, angel,
it hurts me so badly
Your mother and I,
our relationship worked well
After that time that fucked me
I regained my peace
In spite of the distance,
she repeatedly came back
By the time you came,
I thought I’d forgotten how to love
Damn, we believed in it
Even though there were so many barriers, dear;
please don’t tell me that I have failed
It just came
as none of us had planned it
and all of a sudden, I became a father
At first, I felt the emptiness: ¹
no emotion, a dead atmosphere,
joy from within, a dream, and so many plans
After that, ²
I only saw problems
Hook: Moe Phoenix
Send me a sign
(send me a sign)
in bitter times
(in bitter times)
When I’m alone
(when I’m alone)
that you’re okay
Send me a sign
(send me a sign)
I don’t want to cry anymore
(I don’t want to cry anymore)
Don’t let me suffer anymore
(don’t let me suffer anymore)
but it’s too late for that
Part 2: PA Sports
I was twenty, she was older
back then, she didn’t give a shit
that I didn’t have any money
We’d become parents
I was so very happy,
but the joy of that time
isn’t worth anything today ‘cause -
you weren’t able to cope
with the fame and my name
and you saw every woman
around me as a threat
So we fought every day
without a clue, without reason, just like that
Man, I couldn’t stand it
so I left you alone
Again, I wasn’t ready
and over time, that fear dragged you
into the hospital
I know that I’m to blame
although you were never in the right, sweetheart, ³
but even if I had sometimes hurt you,
you were there
Now every day I’m dying in my bed
and think about it
This child would have changed so much by now,
whether boy or girl,
it didn’t matter to me,
it was only suppose to be healthy
and live, Hamidullah! ⁴
Hook: Moe Phoenix
Send me a sign
(send me a sign)
in bitter times
(in bitter times)
When I’m alone
(when I’m alone)
that you’re okay
Send me a sign
(send me a sign)
I don’t want to cry anymore
(I don’t want to cry anymore)
Don’t let me suffer anymore
(don’t let me suffer anymore)
but it’s too late for that
Part 3: PA Sports
When I look in the mirror today
I’m not satisfied
‘cause I never had the opportunity to love you
What has become of you?
I’d love to know
The moment of surgery, my heart was torn apart
damn, they took your life
Can you see these tears?
I’m on my knees, begging you for forgiveness
I’m so very sorry
I want to see how you walk,
how you speak in Persian
and speak in German
how you laugh, how you cry
I swear, I’d give my life
if I knew you could live your life after that
God forgive us; I’m struggling,
and tell my child that I would have loved him ⁴
until the end
Hook: Moe Phoenix
Send me a sign
(send me a sign)
in bitter times
(in bitter times)
When I’m alone
(when I’m alone)
that you’re okay
Send me a sign
(send me a sign)
I don’t want to cry anymore
(I don’t want to cry anymore)
Don’t let me suffer anymore
(don’t let me suffer anymore)
but it’s too late for that