Part 1
I'd just turned three, when you left me
It was mummy who couldn't get over it
She wanted to divorce, stop the lies
How often did she get beaten by you?
How often did you yell to her?
Her arms were black and blue, still she didn't stop loving her husband
Maybe it was because of me
She stayed strong, so I wouldn't lose my father
And I didn't know what was going on
I even wondered if you were dead, why did it have to happen to me?
I was in kindergarten
But did you come once to pick me up? No, you betrayed your child
You were thinking about me, why can't I believe you?
if you can do it, then look me in the eyes
you let me down
I watch the images and start to hate your face
(Ref.)
Don't hold out your hand
I won't take it this time, I never want to see you again
Now don't come
and tell me I have to understand you, I'm done with tears
Don't reach me the hand
You've dissappointed me so much, yet you made this son
Now don't come
You don't need to tell me anything, mummy told me you wanted to go yourself
(Part 2)
I thank my school time
My first day at school alone and the first day in the football (soccer) team
but you didn't care
Till now, I still don't know the reason, father you lie to your boy
I don't like to teach you something
And I'm not calling you a coward, but because of you I was a child from a residental accomodation
The candles on the cake were burning without you
You're a liar when you say that you miss your son
I was only five and already alone on the playground
Where was this father, who loved me?
How can you disregard your child like that?
yes, you are my father, but surely not mature
So often you dealed drugs, I stole so often
Mommy didn't dare to beat her son
And I don't like to tell you
but I missed you, you didn't witness my youth
(Ref.)
Don't hold out your hand
I won't take it this time, I never want to see you again
Now don't come
and tell me I have to understand you, I'm done with tears
Don't reach me the hand
You've dissappointed me so much, yet you made this son
Now don't come
You don't need to tell me anything, mummy told me you wanted to go yourself
(Part 3)
I saw you for the first time, too late
I was 26 years old, ok?
You were not the father I hoped to have
I found your stupid adress on a post card
And I've looked for you in Düsseldorf
Found you in Düsseldorf and cursed Düsseldorf
I was in your house, I looked at you
You've hurt me, stop begging me
You said mommy wanted to divorce you
When you were drunk, you were like a stranger
And for sure, you aren't sorry
Today I tell you, it wasn't easy for your child
And I don't wish you bad
Out of the thought, that no one on God's earth is perfect
I'm grown up, now I can take care of mommy
They had gone, I thought about mommy's worries
(Ref.)
Don't hold out your hand
I won't take it this time, I never want to see you again
Now don't come
and tell me I have to understand you, I'm done with tears
Don't reach me the hand
You've dissappointed me so much, yet you made this son
Now don't come
You don't need to tell me anything, mummy told me you wanted to go yourself