I needed some warmth
Nobody about for love
Just the belly of the pinball machines
And steel balls for conversation 1
And the zeroes of the counter
Don’t be surprised if I am
Someone from the inside 2
They wanted me to resemble them
These men who hunt, who rape
Who calculate and who sell
And who then wanted me to go and
Confess my sins
Don’t be surprised if I am
Someone from the inside
I thought that one got used to it
And that this is how my life would be
I was a bit of a mess at first
But I assure you that these days
I laugh about it more than I cry
I'm someone from the inside
I watch them as they dance
And as they talk and talk
And as they say more than they think
As they attract each other with empty phrases
And they talk so much
That they find me untalkative
So they think I must be sad
But if I laid out my heart
Right in front of them
They would see colours
They don’t even know exist
It’s not a lack of courage
That keeps me from smiling
There are moments so beautiful
That only the silence can describe them
I laugh about it more than I cry
I'm someone from the inside
Perhaps they think that I’m calm
That I’m counting the stars
Surrounded by their racket
But if one day I unveiled
The secrets of my soul
It’s not a lack courage
That keeps me from smiling
There are moments so beautiful
That only the silence can describe them
You've taken all the space in my heart
But I'm someone from the inside
1. There's a whole convoluted pinball metaphor going on here...Nobody real in his life, just the pinball machine to serve as a lover and the noise of the steel balls for conversation2. This is an unusual turn of phrase in French, but the meaning seems clear that he's describing someone who prefers to keep themself to themself, not exactly an introvert but a private person. Francis has said in interviews that he wrote the song so he wouldn't have to keep explaining himself but that unfortunately it just prompted more questions!