[Verse 1]
I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
I battle with depression, but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
And it obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[Chorus]
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer, I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
[Verse 2]
I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knocked down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
Motherfucker, now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[Chorus]
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer, I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
[Breakdown]
Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is, oh, where the fuck is your god now?
[Chorus]
'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer, I'm a popular, popular monster
I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular, popular monster
[Outro]
I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer, I'm a popular, popular monster