Pelikaani [English translation]

I place my hands on my ears again

When children are singing "Let It Go" in the park

I keep on repeating the same word in my head

So that this brain circus would be under control for a moment

And I keep on repeating that the door closed but I turned back

On the staircase I count the steps and I do it again if I miss the count

On the street I step only on every other tile and I cry at the same time

Am I crazy or is everyone else crazy too?

Life give me that small feeling

That I will survive this life

You can't tell from the outside what a person can carry

But I will survive, through this life

I want to get away from pain, I want to get away from shame

I keep on holding onto fear hoping it would bring me safety

But the pelican is not afraid

It flies head first to the open sea

I look from afar how hope is alive

It's wee hours and I am repeating thousands of thoughts

And I still can't fall asleep

What if these thoughts will never go away

But they become real on their own

And I keep on repeating and repeating that this mess will end, I decide so

But what about those diagnoses which were decided on my behalf

I guess I have to open the doors for anxiety so that it can get in

And it can finish it's work before it leaves

Life give me that small feeling

That I will survive this life

You can't tell from the outside what a person can carry

But I will survive, through this life

I want to get away from pain, I want to get away from shame

I keep on holding onto fear hoping it would bring me safety

But the pelican is not afraid

It flies head first to the open sea

I look from afar how hope is alive

I want to get away from pain, I want to get away from shame

I keep on holding onto fear hoping it would bring me safety

Life give me that small feeling

That I will survive this life

You can't tell from the outside what a person can carry

But I will survive, through this life

I want to get away from pain, I want to get away from shame

I keep on holding onto fear hoping it would bring me safety

But the pelican is not afraid

It flies head first to the open sea

I look from afar how hope is alive

Hope is alive