My life took on water from every side—
in a word, everything capsized.
The sky is upside-down
but the world continues turning.
Ask what? Call whom?
My only desire is to shatter everything–
to bite the sheets on my bed—
the rage in my belly—I am going to forget you.
Finished with being here in your life
like a plant, like a photograph.
I fancy going out into the rain—
floating on my back in a warm river.
Let's end this joke of tenderness
that so many women mistake for love.
My brain is about to explode
and I'm going to extricate myself a day at a time.
And to leave or die or sleep for a long time—
and then awaken one day
in another time
rid of your love.
And to leave or die or sleep for a long time—
and never to awaken—
to stop time
as if I had dreamed it all.
Finish drowning yourself in emptiness
and trying to dance on moving sands.
The fear of time, the fear of lines on your skin
lessens with aging—let it be right now.
I will learn to run again,
to see the brilliant sun in my eyes.
I want to catch hold of wild laughter—
to live while throwing oil on the fire.
And to leave or die or sleep for a long time—
and then awaken one day
in another time
rid of your love.
And to leave or die or sleep for a long time—
and never to awaken—
to stop time
as if I had dreamed it all.