Many times I told you that before doing this
we should think it over very carefully
that in this relationship of ours
both substance as well as desire were lacking
That it wasn't enough that you understood me
and that you would die for me,
That it wasn't enough that in my failures
I could find comfort in you
And now you see what has happened
in the end came into being, with the passing of the years,
that tremendous weariness I now cause you
and even if it is distressing, you have to say it.
For my part I was hoping
that one day time would bring it all to an end,
if this had not been so
I would have gone on playing at making you happy,
and although the tears are bitter, think about the years
you have yet to live
My grief is no less than yours and the worst thing
is that at this moment I can feel nothing
and now try to win back
with futile effort this lost time ,
which has left us defeated without the power to appreciate,
that thing they call love
of life
of life