A pessimist's mind is a hundred percent paranoid
Now it's time to blame myself again
The basement I live is the most cold and beautiful place
I'm thankful and hurtful, and too regretful to my dad
Even though a month has passed since I've last seen my family
I don't really want to see them, sorry
I feel like I'll collapse if I just go in front of them
I don't even know what their new house looks like, sorry
If they ask if I've gotten a bit better, my answer is 'Not at all'
The sun rises and I cry for hours, when I open my eyes it's night again
They say that being busy is good, but I don't know if that's true
I'm disgusted for even thinking about that so much
I'll earn enough that my mom won't have to work at the convenience store
Mom, I'll buy you a house you like in the countryside
Would I be able to keep this promise? I don't have confidence that I can
I have to keep this promise, even if I'm not confident I can
Look at Vinxen over there, why's he saying his life's so hard
It's all for his concept, we have to strip it all away
If you're talking like that, wanna explain the scars on my right wrist
That day was the worst, the spilled beauty cake
That stage that didn't even have five people watching
I still remember how happy I was on that stage
That won't happen again, Mingyu, just trust and follow your older brother
Even though I'm unhappy, I have to make my family happy, right
I was born to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all
It's my way of thinking that's the problem
I was meant to be happy, Not at all
I'm feeling unhappy, that's the problem
I was meant to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all
It's my way of thinking, that's the problem
I was meant to be happy, Not at all
I'm feeling unhappy that's the problem
Hey you, you're gotten pretty famous now
Everyone's talking about you at school now
It must've been hard getting to here, but now you're popular
Since you're gonna be earning a lot of money, be happy now
Nope, not at all, shh
Maybe I'm saying this now I'm full, but I'm still the same
The only different things is the way you look at me, It hasn't changed at all
I look happier than I was before, don't I, Not at all
Hey, don't even say that kind of thing
The singers that you used to sing along with at karaoke are close with you now
Now what kind of person would insult you now
So don't pretend like you're unhappy
Sorry, but I was always that kind of guy
The flower you think is beautiful is just poison to me
Don't push me, I'm doing the best that I can to hold on
They say I'm just doing this for a concept and to just let it go
Yeah, everything's still the same, even the pain
The end of the day is far, I'm thinking about if I should just go home
I'm reading books that people say are good now, people are jealous of me
But they don't know that this is my way to escape from reality
If I went out on TV like this, psychopathic
I thought I would be a little less embarrassed, not at all, just the opposite
You've tasted riches, you should be happy now
Wait a second, who should be the one thinking this is unfair here?
It's all a contradiction, people say money and fame isn't everything in life
Vinxen, whether your own money or get completely screwed over, it's the same
Because people here judge the measure of your unhappiness
My eyes are heavy, today's judgement: not bad, other worlds are so much better
Look at Vinxen over there, why's he saying his life's so hard
It's all for his concept, we have to strip it all away
If you're talking like that, wanna explain the scars on my right wrist
That day was the worst, the spilled beauty cake
That stage that didn't even have five people watching
I still remember how happy I was on that stage
That won't happen again, Mingyu, just trust and follow your older brother
Even though I'm unhappy, I have to make my family happy, right
I was born to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all
It's my way of thinking that's the problem
I was meant to be happy, Not at all
I'm feeling unhappy, that's the problem
I was meant to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all
It's my way of thinking, that's the problem
I was meant to be happy, Not at all
I'm feeling unhappy that's the problem