[Chorus]
Mask up my pain, hold back my tears
I'm going insane; nobody knows
All by myself, let the rain hit me
I’m going insane; nobody knows
[Verse 1]
Yeah, I take another shot
Tryna just forget all the negative
Devil laughin' meanwhile God explaining the benefits
Listen financial freedom
Come and go as you please
Arenas packed out
Plus a bunch of hoes on their knees
You got your mom a house
Yea I know it seems bittersweet
Because your parents separated
You thought money sewed seams
And now you think it's your fault
You enabled the breakup
But that’s the power of money now you just funding the makeup
With the same tool that brought it down
Tell the waiter I don't want no ice
I just want tequila
I don't want it watered down
Everything I bought for y'all
I figured that I bought a crown
I figured that you know that you can get it since I got it now
I saw this goin' differently
I be lookin' at the seven year old me like don't come visit me
The public took the fun away
You've been robbed of all of your innocence
I’m talkin’ to myself I hope I'm listening
[Chorus]
Mask up my pain, hold back my tears
I’m going insane; nobody knows
All by myself, let the rain hit me
I'm going insane; nobody knows
[Verse 2]
Juggling the inside and outside heavy
I might call a ex-chick and drink some Henny
Starting off my day with some shit already
Answering the phone like I'm pissed already
Media is lyin' gettin’ used to it
Crucifying me I need a crucifix
Guess I look the part so I might as well
Heaven's where you get when you fight through the hell
People keep slandering but I can't respond
Because if I do y'all call me crazy say my focus is wrong
I'm feelin' fed up, yea
This isn't natural no
Keep it together let it fall apart in music
I can't let them see the pain
When I'm the one that gets them through it
This some real life shit
Sometimes I feel like shit
[Chorus]
Mask up my pain, hold back my tears
I'm going insane; nobody knows
All by myself, let the rain hit me
I'm going insane; nobody knows