I still remember but at the times
it comes as just a sudden fright
a wave of emptiness
a cold lonely feeling in the night.
What did I do? who were you
I don't want to never ever deny
wanted you but had to let go.
Hollow space when you were taken away
days of numbness, months of sadness, weeks of pain
What would you have been
if you only could have stayed here in this world
from my core, empty womb ripped blooded to the bone
please know that you're always here with me
for me you still are real
I feel you, hear you, you're not gone
Who gives away what they would love the most?
I'm a monster in a mother's disguise
Oh I look ahead, I try to forget
I hear my children play
I hear a bird that flew away
I have two that stayed
I have two, I have two
I don't have you.
A part of me, your sweet weight on my every step
a longing sadness I'll forever carry deep
Oh I look ahead, I try to forget
I hear my children play
I hear a bird that flew away
I have two that stayed
I have two, I have two
I don't have you. [x2]