at the shore of a numbing river
lies a curled up man without tomorrow
he cracked his mouth by screaming
scraps of hope hang in threads
a whole piece of the man is missing
it fell out of his chest
like the whitest flower that has just
been violently ripped from a magnolia
why did you not want me?
why did you not choose me?
why did you not take me
although I was useless and willing?
on the grass, a laughing child
and his mother flutter with happiness
trustful eyes
And brass mouths1 still laugh to the lens
it's a vanishing image
a tape about to wear out
a memory blackening under the longing
and drives into the heart
a rusty nail of sorrow
with the heaviest hammer
why did you not want me...?
why did you not want me?
why did you not choose me?
why did you not kill me
although I was in sight and exposed?
why did you not want me?
why did you not choose me?
why did you not murder me?
alone I am weak and fragile
why did you not want me...?
1. I found this could refer to people that play brass instruments.