Los Amigos Que Perdí [English translation]

I went out looking for the lost time

Following the trail of dawn

And I joined people with no measure

That no one really wants to meet

A crazy man gave me classes of strychnine*

A writer talked me about Maldoror*

A judge acquitted me of my routine

And a flower removed my pain

If you wanna see me

You're gonna have to explore

Those deserts I can't abandon

I opened a door that closed behind me

And they don't hurt, the friends I lost.

I specialized in suicide nights

Just the day I met her

And I mistook windmills for giants

After a week without sleep

If you wanna see me

You're gonna have to explore

Those deserts I can't abandon

I opened a door that closed behind me

And they don't hurt, the friends I lost.

Fear is a sharp knife

Revenge is a stucked arrow

There's nothing more useless than hate

There's nothing more painful than rancor

I try to get out of my mind

I strive to unlearn

I walk the other way

I look for the origin

I look for something out there

If you wanna see me

You're gonna have to come

To some places I can't describe

I opened a door that closed behind me

And they don't hurt, the friends I lost.

If you wanna see me

You're gonna have to accept

That there are certain things that will take me away from you

I opened a door that closed when I ran away

And I've forgotten the friends I lost

*strychnine: is a highly toxic alkaloid used as a pesticide, particularly for killing birds and rodents. When inhaled, swallowed or absorbed through eyes or mouth, causes a poisoning which results in death through asphyxia.

*Maldoror: a figure of absolute evil who is opposed to God and humanity, and has renounced conventional morality and decency. It is the main character of the poetic novel "Les Chants de Maldoror"