La peur de L'échec [English translation]

I'm afraid I'll never finish my album,

My inspiration's gone, but I don't care no more to be a singer anyway

I'm not 15 anymore

My music videos make me feel pathetic

What I'm saying in my songs is all cliché, it ain't the truth

Fame scares me

I'm scared I'll burn my wings trying to reach the spotlights

Truth is, I do give a shit what people say

I'm lost between what they expect and what I really am

Every day I play a role

I pretend

I joke around to hide the fear

I waste my time questionning myself and do nothing

I'm affraid of depression, scared of the future and its disillusions

As I grow up and time goes by, the letdown gets worse

Caught up in the fears of future injuries

Looking for excuses only drags me down

I get drunk on negativity, and I feel alive

Often, I'm scared of boredome

I'm scared I got no reason to complain

And still, I feel sad all the time, I feel empty

I'm scared I'm normal, just average, not too bad or too good

I think I'm useless

I'm scared of my friends 'cause they know my weaknesses

My Achilles heels, they know how fragile my foundations really are

They trust me for now

But when I let them down, they'll be next to me, ready to give the first blows

I'm affraid my parents hate me

Since my 13's I've only regressed

Hurt them, burdened them, ditched what they taught me to do nothing but crap

Like I'm better than my father, like I'm better than my mother

They think they love me

I think they're fooling themselves

I think they love the one they dream to see in my place

Cause they don't know what's going on behind the mask

Who's behind the facade, because they don't know my true colors

When I say that I hate girls, it's just for cred

I never really got involved, I ran

I cheated on my feelings thinking I was faithful

I avoided love for fear of getting fucked over, like a coward

I thought the more I got attached the less it worked

I've betrayed and I've stained, I've hated and bannished,

And what did I gain besides remorse and diseases ?

Nothing, except the fear to be alone for all my life

I kinda believe in God, but not really

I'll be going with the infidels when I leave feet first

I'm scared I'm drawn to nothingness

I feel so good within darkness, I feel in my element

I feel like jumping into the void

Slipping my neck into the noose, like drowning

Like slitting my veins from elbow to wrist

I wanna put a bullet in my skull, but I got no piece...

Just look into my eyes, you'll understand I'm just a puss

I'm affraid to lose

I'm affraid of failure

I'm affraid to lose

I'm affraid of failure

Affraid of failure

I'm affraid to lose

I'm affraid

I'm affraid of failure

Affraid of failure

I'm affraid to lose

I'm affraid

I'm affraid of failure

Affraid of failure

I'm affraid to face the trials of life

I'm affraid of my mistakes

I'm affraid of the future