I know It's never good to show up, that I mustn't call you
That It must seem that I'm good this way, that I could forget her
Like I know that It was her decision and I must respect It
And I must curb this hope of loving her again
If I do it all good perhaps one day I will make her cry
And It's not that I want her to suffer,It's that I don't want her to Ignore me
That although I did It with no guilt maybe my fears get the best of me
If I do it all good perhaps one day I come back and fall in love
Do It all without mistakes to see if you are captive
And find the perfect excuse to let u know that I'm still alive
And make that phone call that shows that I still exist
The strategy is the least of it, I Just wanna hear your voice
I don't wanna keep playing
Let my friends be the ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
Swallowing my words and not telling you I miss you
And not saying I love you
Hurts so much your game that I pray for anesthesia
Bleeds out a heart as yours has amnesia
It doesn't remember that night that we vow to be forever
That we were gonna give it all to love each other
That parallel universe in which you still love me
It's the cure for moments that hurt me so much
Hurts so much the abandonment, I gave you everything you have
And the more Iove I give you the more you sharpen It and hurt me
I don't wanna keep playing
Let my friends be the ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
Swallowing my words and not telling you I miss you
And not saying I love you
I've been told that you forgot me
And that you're not sad anymore
That there's another one and you no longer care about
What you felt about me one day
And I don't lose hope
And dream about those you lied to
And that you use the same strategy
That I used when you left
I don't wanna keep playing
Let my friends be the ones who decide what I do
The truth is I'm drowning
Swallowing my words and not telling you I miss you
And not saying I love you