From having lived most of my life alone,
To not feeling comfortable in my own company.
I know that everyone is responsible for her own life.
But people do something to me.
And as it seems at the moment,
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.
The first one I could blame on my youth,
Or that I was young and he was stupid.
I remember how I hardly could breathe,
The first time he walked away.
But no one felt any guilt. Neither he, nor I.
Things just take time sometimes.
And as it seems at the moment,
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.
The second one stole my years.
What use did he have for them?
He never wanted to say that he loved me.
He was afraid that he would regret it.
And I said: Never again a man like that,
Who only cares,
About things that concern him.
And as it seems at the moment,
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.
I dont know if the third one counts.
It was not love but close enough.
He walked laps around me and told me to wait.
It became boring from where I stood.
And even if we meant well,
We did wrong,
By pretending that we were one and the same person.
And as it seems at the moment,
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.
The fourth one tore me apart.
Actually it still hurts.
I remember the nights when I slept on the couch.
It was like a wall between us anyway.
I think that we made so tight bonds,
To ourselves and to each other,
That no one of us wanted to break free.
And as it seems at the moment,
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.
I have failed in every relationship.
They are lying here in a pile, staring at me.
Mmmm, mmmm
Wasn't I good enough?
Maybe I took it too far.
Now I'm saying goodbye to you all at the same time.
And as it seems at the moment,
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again.
I'll never do this again, anymore.