A sound of something breaking
I suddenly wake up from sleep
A sound filled with unfamiliarity
I try to cover my ears but can’t go to sleep
My throat repeatedly hurts
Even though I try to cover it up
I don’t have a voice
Today too, I hear that sound
Once again that sound is ringing
On this frozen lake, a crack is forming again
As you know, I threw myself away into that lake
As you know, I buried my voice for your sake
Above the winter lake in which I threw myself away
A thick ice has frozen over
Even in the dream that I briefly enter
The torturous phantom pain is the same as ever
Did I lose myself
Or did I gain you
I suddenly run towards the lake
Oh, my face is inside it
I beg you, don’t say anything
Although I try to stretch out my hand to block the mouth
In the end, spring will come someday
The ice will melt down and flow away
Tell me, if my voice is fake
Should I not have thrown myself away
Tell me, if the suffering itself is fake
What I should’ve done at that time