Sound of something breaking
I suddenly wake up from sleep
The sound full of unfamiliarity
I try to cover my ears but I can’t fall asleep.
My throat keeps hurting
I try to keep it covered
I have no voice
Again today, I hear that sound.
Again, that sound is resonating. / OR: Again, that sound is making (me) cry.
There is again a crack in this frozen lake.
I had dumped myself in that lake
Buried my voice for you.
On the winter lake where I was dumped
A thick layer of ice has frozen.
In the dream that I briefly went into
The phantom pain that tortures me is still ongoing
Have I lost myself?
Or have I gained you?
I suddenly run to the lake
Inside it, is my face.
Please don’t say a word
I try to reach out my hand to cover the mouth
In the end, someday, spring comes
And ice melts and flows away
Tell me, if my voice is fake
Should I not have thrown myself away
Tell me if even this pain is fake
What should have I done back then?