[Verse 1]
I was an anxious child
An only child, the one who didn't want to
Play football, because I was a ballet dancer
Always got lost in the world, I never had a sense of direction
And my dad was the night life king
I knew the gifts were there When i saw his pictures coming
what happened the først schoolday is guessing
But I saw the neighbour boy go towards the principle with a chain
[Pre-Chorus]
And that's when I became afraid of the world, and everything it contained
All seem so empty
I answered the voice inside my head, hid in my room
I had a 50 kilometer rottweiler
Mum called it Diva, which we eventually put to sleep
I made friends that were people
But just triple six and a few sizes up in the sweater
It was then I began liking boundaries
(Let me out of sight, because the hawk is coming)
[Chorus]
Tired of stepping back in my tracks
Was there something I lost along the way, I don't know where or what?
Where my grandparents live, I am everyones cousin or brother
When I dared to look back, I see shadows
Tried to take them by the collar, but they backed away
Gave me goosebumps on the stomach, realized everything I believed was wrong
Nothing will be the same, but it's the same for me
[Verse 2]
Sat completely quiet until midnight, and pretended like we didn't do anything
Because that's when Nickelodeon turned to porn
All kings meet relapse
Youth clubs, bottles with weird mixes and black metal
Suicide and premature L-words
I was good with them, but couldn't say what I wanted with words
Wrote stuff down and hid it in the bathroom drawer
We broke into cars and split the profit in two
I liked logo-stuff and Burberry
The boys just "grandmothers curtains"?
They though it was nerdy, honestly, wasn't that bad
But packed everything into storage and wept for several hours, day and night
When me and Eirik got a tree house
And I was content with getting shadow for our screens
Gameboy, a world where fantasies
But adult's fantasies and cannulas came in our way
[Pre-Chorus]
And that's when I became
afraid of the world, and everything it contained
All seem so empty
I answered the Voice in my head while the eyelids became heavy
I had a 50 kilometer rottweiler
Mum called it Diva, which we eventually put to sleep
I got friends from the apartment complex
Summer holidays without ever looking at the clock
It was there the time should have stopped
[Chorus]
Tired of stepping back in my tracks
Was there something I lost along the way, I don't know where or what?
Where my grandparents live, I am everyones cousin or brother
When I dared to look back, I see shadows
Tried to take them by the collar, but they backed away
Gave me goosebumps on the stomach, realized everything I believed was wrong
Nothing will be the same, but it's the same for me
[Interlude]
[Chorus]
Tired of stepping back in my tracks
Was there something I lost along the way, I don't know where or what?
Where my grandparents live, I am everyones cousin or brother
When I dared to look back, I see shadows
Tried to take them by the collar, but they backed away
Gave me goosebumps on the stomach, realized everything I believed was wrong
Nothing will be the same, but it's the same for me