More and more
I'm realising
That I bottled up a lot of emotions as a child
And that the same problems
That I wouldn't have with a stranger
Still play out every day, they're definitely not resolved
Things could never once be normal with us
But what even is normal?
Because the older I get
The better I understand
That my parents aren't heroes
But look like me
They just pretend
They mean well, but
What time doesn't change
Even though I'll become an adult one day
Is what's in my blood
Hey dad
You're in my blood
And, perhaps just like you, I never
Think I'm good enough, and then my mother
She never actually says no
Because she wants to keep everyone happy
And follow along with everything
Things could never once be normal with us
But what even is normal?
Because the older I get
The better I understand
That my parents aren't heroes
But look like me
They just pretend
They mean well, but
What time doesn't change
Even though I'll become an adult one day
Is what's in my blood
Because it's in my blood
And then my little sister
I get annoyed too often
Because I know that my broken heart
Looks just like hers, and
If she's getting married soon
Then I might become an uncle
Then I'll know one thing for sure
Her child won't ever just be normal, because
The older I get
The better I understand
That I've become
Who I'm supposed to be
I just pretend, and
I mean so well, but
What time doesn't change
Is what's in my blood