I think I've been drowning inside
Cause everything I had has been lost for a long time
It took me months to write this
Cause I haven't been the same since that day
Listen
Let me tell you how it was
She was suddenly back
I read her name on Insta1
She texted that she was homesick
And she asked how I was doing
She reckoned everything was okay except for the fact that she was missing me.
She messaged if we could talk
Asked if I was seeing someone else
At that time I was in Rostock for the shoot for the new day of the month.
I drove two hundred kilometres for her that day
Just so I could see that woman again for a few hours.
I recorded everything for her
I gave up everything for her
I didn't even call her for fear I'd end up hanging up on her again
Cause when I was there, I had to throw up soon afterwards
For all those weeks I did everything to survive
She was my breath, she deserved everything
Every song, every post, I did everything for her
I wrote her fifty-six songs
In the time she wasn't with me
And everything I did I ended up regretting
And then we were happily in love
She came back with the condition that I keep her away from music.
She always said she'd be there for me
But somehow we never saw the light of day
For the memories tore me apart
And so it grew quiet in time
Everything good departed, eventually it all seemed to be the same again
I escaped into my work
I just didn't want to be there anymore
But this time this woman didn't seem to give up on me after all
She was constantly ready to take on any fight together
But this time it almost seemed
As if I couldn't get up
And she didn't have the strength
To just pick up the pieces2
I crushed her
Cause she had no protection at all
Yet this woman would have gone through any fire and water3 of this world
But I was running away from her
I just departed
And do you know what the worst part is?
She genuinely thought it was all right
She really believed that she deserved it
And she always thought that she was the one to blame
Cause she always found fault with herself
And I should have been there fighting instead of doing nothing.
And then she walked away with all that love
Every night I see her kneeling in front of me while crying.
Every night I see in my mind's eye how it all fell apart
And for weeks I've wished
That all this wasn't true
I called her once, her cell phone was off.
Her voicemail picked up, I was tongue-tied4
I stood in front of her house with a bouquet of flowers
But she moved out
I tried to reach her once
But apparently the number she has got is no longer the old one
I don't think she'll ever hear how I feel
And I'll never hear her voice again
But if you're listening to this, I want to tell you
"Please take good care of yourself!"
You don't have to carry the burden anymore
You put everything you had into both of us
And I thank you for that, you were perfect.
I didn't deserve a life with you and
If you're ever sad, just listen to this song
Cause I know it's too late and the letter is only coming now
But seriously, you were my everything
All my love, your ex
1. Insta is short for "Instagram", an ad-supported online photo and video sharing service that has been part of Facebook since 2012.2. idiom: to pick up the pieces = eine Situation wieder normalisieren. The German text doesn't use a idiom. A direct translation would be: "Simply overturning incidents" 3. idiom: to go through fire and water for sb. = für jdn. durchs Feuer gehen.4. English: to be tongue-tied = German: keinen Ton herausbringen