In Liebe, dein Ex [English translation]

I think I've been drowning inside

Cause everything I had has been lost for a long time

It took me months to write this

Cause I haven't been the same since that day

Listen

Let me tell you how it was

She was suddenly back

I read her name on Insta1

She texted that she was homesick

And she asked how I was doing

She reckoned everything was okay except for the fact that she was missing me.

She messaged if we could talk

Asked if I was seeing someone else

At that time I was in Rostock for the shoot for the new day of the month.

I drove two hundred kilometres for her that day

Just so I could see that woman again for a few hours.

I recorded everything for her

I gave up everything for her

I didn't even call her for fear I'd end up hanging up on her again

Cause when I was there, I had to throw up soon afterwards

For all those weeks I did everything to survive

She was my breath, she deserved everything

Every song, every post, I did everything for her

I wrote her fifty-six songs

In the time she wasn't with me

And everything I did I ended up regretting

And then we were happily in love

She came back with the condition that I keep her away from music.

She always said she'd be there for me

But somehow we never saw the light of day

For the memories tore me apart

And so it grew quiet in time

Everything good departed, eventually it all seemed to be the same again

I escaped into my work

I just didn't want to be there anymore

But this time this woman didn't seem to give up on me after all

She was constantly ready to take on any fight together

But this time it almost seemed

As if I couldn't get up

And she didn't have the strength

To just pick up the pieces2

I crushed her

Cause she had no protection at all

Yet this woman would have gone through any fire and water3 of this world

But I was running away from her

I just departed

And do you know what the worst part is?

She genuinely thought it was all right

She really believed that she deserved it

And she always thought that she was the one to blame

Cause she always found fault with herself

And I should have been there fighting instead of doing nothing.

And then she walked away with all that love

Every night I see her kneeling in front of me while crying.

Every night I see in my mind's eye how it all fell apart

And for weeks I've wished

That all this wasn't true

I called her once, her cell phone was off.

Her voicemail picked up, I was tongue-tied4

I stood in front of her house with a bouquet of flowers

But she moved out

I tried to reach her once

But apparently the number she has got is no longer the old one

I don't think she'll ever hear how I feel

And I'll never hear her voice again

But if you're listening to this, I want to tell you

"Please take good care of yourself!"

You don't have to carry the burden anymore

You put everything you had into both of us

And I thank you for that, you were perfect.

I didn't deserve a life with you and

If you're ever sad, just listen to this song

Cause I know it's too late and the letter is only coming now

But seriously, you were my everything

All my love, your ex

1. Insta is short for "Instagram", an ad-supported online photo and video sharing service that has been part of Facebook since 2012.2. idiom: to pick up the pieces = eine Situation wieder normalisieren. The German text doesn't use a idiom. A direct translation would be: "Simply overturning incidents" 3. idiom: to go through fire and water for sb. = für jdn. durchs Feuer gehen.4. English: to be tongue-tied = German: keinen Ton herausbringen