Hit The Switch lyrics

I'm staring out into that vacuum again

From the back porch of my mind

The only thing that's alive, I'm all there is

And I start attacking my vodka

Stab the ice with my straw

My eyes have turned red as stoplights

You seem ready to walk

You know I'll call you eventually

When I wanna talk, 'til then you're invisible

Cause there's this switch that gets hit

And it all stops making sense

And in the middle of drinks

Maybe the fifth or the sixth

I'm completely alone at a table of friends

I feel nothing for them

I feel nothing, nothing.

Well I need a break from the city again

I think I'll ship myself back west

I've got a friend there she says,

"hey anytime"

Unless that offers expired

I have been less than frequent

She's under no obligation

To indulge every whim

And I'm so ungrateful, I take

She gives and forgives and I keep forgetting it

And each morning she wakes

With a dream to describe

Something lovely that bloomed

In her beautiful mind

I say, "I'll trade you one

For two nightmares of mine,

I have somewhere I die,

I have somewhere we all die"

I'm thinking of quitting drinking again

I know I've said that a couple of times

And I'm always changing my mind

Well I guess I am

But there's this burn in my stomach

And there's this pain in my side

And when I kneel at the toilet

And the morning's clean light

Pours in through the window

Sometimes I pray I don't die

I'm a goddamn hypocrite

But then night rolls around and it all starts making sense

There is no right way or wrong way, you just have to live

And so I do what I do, and at least I exist

What could mean more than this?

What would mean more, mean more?