חתולים [Hatulim] [English translation]

How can i tell you that i love you

i can't find the words

so i send you

a video of cats

I want to tell you that i searched for you because for love there isn't any time or age

but i don't want you to feel stressed so i write

hey, you popped up for me when you changed your profile pic

i want to tell you that i miss you

but i also want to impress

so i quote Aviv1

"the key of distance opened for me a gate of longing"

i read between the lines of thoughts that you shared that your past relationships were for you a like a river that flows only in the winter2

and i want to say

i am the flow that comes after the rain

up to now you were satisfied with heatwaves

if you lose your grasp like fall

let me bring you the autumn

but i don't want to upset you

so i ask

how are things? how are you doing?

chorus

I want to say

do you remember, in high school? we lived like in a teen movie

you played the role of queen of our class and i played the role of friend3

the songs we danced to at the prom, when you understood that i was what you searched for, still play in my ears

but i feel that this is kitschy so i write

do you realize how long it has been since high school? wow

I want to say

it is hard to forget how bitter was the taste of our breakup

in the place where you stood there was only air without oxygen and i tossed and turned in bed with the expectation that you would return

and you didn't

but i don't want to manipulate your emotions so i write

laughing together, i remember the day that you traveled

and i want to ask why didn't you answer my letters

why did you fly away like an illusionary butterfly

i want to ask why you didn't want my words

why did you allow the abyss of longing

to cause me sleepless nights and to color my days in deep gray

but i want to appear as easygoing

so i send you the letter "chet" three times4

chorus

And after everything

i want you to know how much i tried

how much i wanted to find the words

i went and searched in the songs of others

and i still could not find how to tell you that you are

a river of sweet water in the salt desert

surely you will think this is weird

a man of words that can't say a thing

1. reference to Israeli singer Aviv Gefen2. a seasonal stream, nachal achzav3. as opposed to being a boy friend4. ח ח ח - modern Hebrew for LOL