Happiness [English translation]

I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly

That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice

I have so many unnecessary thoughts

I hate insomnia

It seems that not being able to sleep

has become a habit

Every time my inferiority complex wakes up

I miss my nineteen year old self so much

I want to seem pitiful as well but

why don't you know anything?

Why did I have to pretend to be an adult

when I was having a hard time?

I overcome it just to get ignored to that extent

Do I have to overcome it completely to be understood?

I was just a broken kid

without love

Yeah, even though I say 'dad let's be happy'

Your son is earning money now

Dad I'll buy you a perfume

Even though yesterday I wasted a day's worth of 80,000 Won

Every day, everywhere I go

I freely ride a taxi and come home

It's funny, yeah that's right

Until a couple days ago

I would collect my coins and take the 5616

To work at a part-time job all day

But now the million Won I spent yesterday

Is really nothing to me

I'm sorry sisters

but why was the 200,000 Won

I brought when I just turned a 20 y/o adult

so disappointing?

At the wedding ceremony of my big sister

All the guests that were crying

probably didn't know

That the younger brother immaturely bought it

Thank you to the tears of the beautiful bride that were worth 300,000 Won

The convenience store lunch box

That I begged for

Mingyu, Taewon ordered all the food they wanted

'Cause I bought all of it

I bought Jisoo fried chicken

50,000 Won in hand

I remember, I walk and pick up a call

'I can buy it for you, I have a lot of money now'

'Don't just open your hand for anyone'

I'm happy but it's still hard

I'm hungry but I keep searching in discomfort first

I want to be acknowledged, I want to be comforted

I want to be happy, I want to be loved

I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly

That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice

I have so many unnecessary thoughts

I hate insomnia

It seems that not being able to sleep

has become a habit

Every time my inferiority complex wakes up

I miss my nineteen year old self so much

I want to seem pitiful as well but

why don't you know anything?

Why did I have to pretend to be an adult

when I was having a hard time?

I overcome it just to get ignored to that extent

Do I have to overcome it completely to be understood?

I was just a broken kid

without love

Dad I hope I'm happy too

No, honestly I hope I'm the most happy

Dad I hope you smile every time

You pick up the phone

But I can't say that much

I'm still a kid after all

I clean up alone in the empty house

I'm sorry I took the subway back

Please don't ask me if I ate

I'm sorry I ate a lot more delicious stuff

Than dad ever did

I won't let my sisters down again

I'll make more money so we don't have to talk about finances again

Even if people say

my success is fake

I'll overcome it just for us

Even if abandoned love becomes a lie

Even if it's broken and not okay

I close my eyes and cover my ears

It's actually not for my sisters

or for my dad

Even now I'm

Selling my unhappiness for myself, yeah

To what extent? To what extend do I go?

To the far end of these words

I'm still young, but I have to be mature

I still can't do anything but pretend to be that

for my dream

I want to acknowledge my success too

I want to be comforted for my sadness too

Dad, I want me to be happy too

Now I want to be loved by you who hates me

I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly

That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice

I have so many unnecessary thoughts

I hate insomnia

It seems that not being able to sleep

has become a habit

Every time my inferiority complex wakes up

I miss my nineteen year old self so much

I want to seem pitiful as well but

why don't you know anything?

Why did I have to pretend to be an adult

when I was having a hard time?

I overcome it just to get ignored to that extent

Do I have to overcome it completely to be understood?

I was just a broken kid

without love

I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly

That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice

I have so many unnecessary thoughts

I hate insomnia

It seems that not being able to sleep

has become a habit

Every time my inferiority complex wakes up

I miss my nineteen year old self so much