I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly
That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice
I have so many unnecessary thoughts
I hate insomnia
It seems that not being able to sleep
has become a habit
Every time my inferiority complex wakes up
I miss my nineteen year old self so much
I want to seem pitiful as well but
why don't you know anything?
Why did I have to pretend to be an adult
when I was having a hard time?
I overcome it just to get ignored to that extent
Do I have to overcome it completely to be understood?
I was just a broken kid
without love
Yeah, even though I say 'dad let's be happy'
Your son is earning money now
Dad I'll buy you a perfume
Even though yesterday I wasted a day's worth of 80,000 Won
Every day, everywhere I go
I freely ride a taxi and come home
It's funny, yeah that's right
Until a couple days ago
I would collect my coins and take the 5616
To work at a part-time job all day
But now the million Won I spent yesterday
Is really nothing to me
I'm sorry sisters
but why was the 200,000 Won
I brought when I just turned a 20 y/o adult
so disappointing?
At the wedding ceremony of my big sister
All the guests that were crying
probably didn't know
That the younger brother immaturely bought it
Thank you to the tears of the beautiful bride that were worth 300,000 Won
The convenience store lunch box
That I begged for
Mingyu, Taewon ordered all the food they wanted
'Cause I bought all of it
I bought Jisoo fried chicken
50,000 Won in hand
I remember, I walk and pick up a call
'I can buy it for you, I have a lot of money now'
'Don't just open your hand for anyone'
I'm happy but it's still hard
I'm hungry but I keep searching in discomfort first
I want to be acknowledged, I want to be comforted
I want to be happy, I want to be loved
I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly
That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice
I have so many unnecessary thoughts
I hate insomnia
It seems that not being able to sleep
has become a habit
Every time my inferiority complex wakes up
I miss my nineteen year old self so much
I want to seem pitiful as well but
why don't you know anything?
Why did I have to pretend to be an adult
when I was having a hard time?
I overcome it just to get ignored to that extent
Do I have to overcome it completely to be understood?
I was just a broken kid
without love
Dad I hope I'm happy too
No, honestly I hope I'm the most happy
Dad I hope you smile every time
You pick up the phone
But I can't say that much
I'm still a kid after all
I clean up alone in the empty house
I'm sorry I took the subway back
Please don't ask me if I ate
I'm sorry I ate a lot more delicious stuff
Than dad ever did
I won't let my sisters down again
I'll make more money so we don't have to talk about finances again
Even if people say
my success is fake
I'll overcome it just for us
Even if abandoned love becomes a lie
Even if it's broken and not okay
I close my eyes and cover my ears
It's actually not for my sisters
or for my dad
Even now I'm
Selling my unhappiness for myself, yeah
To what extent? To what extend do I go?
To the far end of these words
I'm still young, but I have to be mature
I still can't do anything but pretend to be that
for my dream
I want to acknowledge my success too
I want to be comforted for my sadness too
Dad, I want me to be happy too
Now I want to be loved by you who hates me
I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly
That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice
I have so many unnecessary thoughts
I hate insomnia
It seems that not being able to sleep
has become a habit
Every time my inferiority complex wakes up
I miss my nineteen year old self so much
I want to seem pitiful as well but
why don't you know anything?
Why did I have to pretend to be an adult
when I was having a hard time?
I overcome it just to get ignored to that extent
Do I have to overcome it completely to be understood?
I was just a broken kid
without love
I give up easily, I get used to it so quickly
That I'm wondering if I'm just pretending to be nice
I have so many unnecessary thoughts
I hate insomnia
It seems that not being able to sleep
has become a habit
Every time my inferiority complex wakes up
I miss my nineteen year old self so much