Eleison lyrics

Eleison

Eleison

I spend my days in self-disdain

And I feel so ashamed

Because I know that in the end

I would do it over again

You'd better

You'd better done it

I can no longer bear this cage

That you forged out of lies

And I get stronger in my rage

Say, can't you hear me cry?

You'd better

You'd better done it

Why didn't you kill me?

Why didn't you kill me when you could?

Why didn't you set fire to my pyre?

It would have been better if you had killed me there and then

Why d'you kick me in the stomach in your boots?

I can neither breathe nor speak

I try to protect my face with my hands

But we both know I'm too weak

You'd better

You'd better done it

I don't know if you're still cutting me

And if you know that it's in vain

I don't know if you're still shouting at me

Can't hear anymore, feel no pain

You'd better

You'd better done it

You'd better

You'd better done it

Why didn't you kill me?

Why didn't you kill me when you could?

Why didn't you set fire to my pyre?

It would have been better if you had killed me there and then

Eleison, Eleison...

Why didn't you kill me?

Why didn't you kill me when you could?

Why didn't you set fire to my pyre?

It would have been better if you had killed me there and then

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Is it wet because you spit on me

Or is it blood that I spat out?

Will you stop just for a while?

Please tell me do I still smile,

Do I cry or am I laughing out loud?

I wonder if you're still cutting me

And if you know that it's in vain

It doesn't matter that it hurts

I cannot understand the words

No matter how you cry or shout.

I feel no pain

And I feel nothing but grief

And the fear of seeing you leave

And the shame of knowing I would do it over again