I hate you as I always loved you
But you led me in silence
In the darkness of an addiction
That I try (and I try and try to go away from this hell)
to leave behind (but I ain't strong enough to believe in myself)
That I try (so I stay in the dark addicted to my sadness)
to erase (and I stay in the dark, and I stay in the dark)
But I hope for nothing more
A dose to touch the forbidden
Another to forget yourself
A dose just to find again
The first effect
A dose more to dream
An addiction that you believe controls you
A dose too much to lose all hope
I hate myself
Because I doubtlessly loved
But you left me in silence
Alone against this fucking addiction
I consume myself, I feel emptied
I was the one who believed I could control everything
I don't see that death
Is what attracts me into its arms
A dose to touch the forbidden
Another to forget yourself
A dose just to find again
The first effect
A dose more to dream
An addiction that you believe controls you
A dose too much to lose all hope
If my eyes shine again
It's just the desire to remake a fake agreement
Just a false sense of hope
My only help comes from you
My addiction!
A dose to touch the forbidden
Another to forget yourself
A dose just to find again
The first effect
A dose more to dream
An addiction that you believe controls you
A dose too much to quit breathing