Confessions lyrics

I have a tale to tell

I was three feet from the floor, gasping for air

Trying to release my fathers hands from my throat

I looked into his eyes and wondered

If my feet would ever touch the floor again

Have you ever been hit so hard that it sends your body flying across the room?

We all fall to the floor at some point

It's how you pick yourself up, that's the real challenge

Isn't it?

I've always lived in my own world

I dance to escape my troubles

I've learnt that there's light even in the darkest places

I can't blame my father for anything

You can't rely on other people to make you happy

But I know deep down inside

He loved me

It was a time

I suffered so much I wanted to get it out of me

I would cut my arms

Not to kill myself, I don't want to die

I know I am lucky to be on this Earth

I did it so the physical pain would calm the pain that was eating me inside

Nothing was erased

I live with my past tucked away, deep inside of me

It comes out as an explosion and

It invades me

I believe we are messengers on Earth

I believe in angels

I am blessed by God to tell myself I suffered that much to become who I am today

Now you have to realize

Not only do I have a family but now I have a whole hood

And that's power

But I ain't no primy ass nigga

I was never out to kill anybody

Specially when I made that decision of gang bang

I just wanted to fit in

But one day

I was forced to do something that made me open my eyes

And realize that this ain't no game

One of the homies got popped

And I was the first one doing my first drop by

It was kinda fucked up the way they tried to set me up

Me and my bro, we was headed back to the A block

Then some homies rolled up

And they asked us to go somewhere

We pulled up to the corner

Then he pressed the chunky ass gun in my lap

He said, "you know what to do really

It's time to get poppy for the hood"

But I wasn't out to kill anybody