Complication [Durarara!!] lyrics

The clouds are frowning back at me

As if they’re trying not to cry

All I can do is idle and waste away my time

My thoughts are a mess all over

But I try my best to choke them down

They boil up inside me until they all burst out

I am afraid I’ll fuck up any day now

But I’m trying hard just to get myself together

I’ll lose myself in all my problems

With every passing day that I keep waiting for answers

How do I make a pretty picture

On tomorrow’s empty canvas of white infinity

How do I make a pretty picture

On tomorrow’s empty canvas of black reality

If I try I’ll shine maybe

I'm feeling pathetic as I worry myself sick

Can’t stand it doing jack shit

But what are my dreams I left them to rot

Now I hide away smoking up on the rooftop

Another boring day at the cafe

I’m not myself now all my friends say

Everything’s fine I bark a lie

Though it's a pain can't help but deny

I saunter down along the same old sidewalk

As I shuffle through my brand new iPod

Every song is lacking substance

I’m overwhelmed when it’s really nothing

Used to be so warm and peaceful then

Now I’d suffocate without windows open

Underneath the pressure feeling constipated

I cannot avoid the complications

I am afraid I’ll fuck up any day now

But I’m trying hard just to get myself together

I lose myself in all my problems

With every passing day that I keep waiting for answers

How do I make a pretty picture

On tomorrow’s empty canvas of white infinity

How do I make a pretty picture

On tomorrow’s empty canvas of black reality

If I try I’ll shine maybe

I try to last a fleeting moment

To draw a picture

A messy portrait of who I long to be

And starting now I’m making peace with me