I waited for him to come,
And at night I would call him, like he hasn't been here in a million years.
I waited for something new,
And in this routine everything's in prospect, the memories are blurry,
I waited for the rain,
And at war, like everyone else, I waited for the soldiers to come out,
For my mother to calm down, her heart is wet inside some pit,
If he'll get hurt, she'd be gone,
I waited for peace,
With all the clichés,
With all those people I waited for air,
I waited in the mornings,
For the alcohol to wear off,
For the batteries to die, for the ringing to stop,
I waited for Saturday/Shabbat,
I waited for an explanation over all that's important,
We almost never speak of it,
I waited for boundaries
And within this tumult I waited to grab the reins.
I waited,
Like the earth waits for water,
Like a child that screams to the heavens
And I still wait every day, every single day.
I waited in silence,
With all of my dreams, maybe because I was afraid to take the blow.
I waited like everyone else,
Maybe a bit less, I stopped taking responsibility over expectations and their pain.
I waited to change,
Even just a tiny bit, for someone, even if it's just for a few minutes.
And there's no one else, love yourself,
A person is born, goes through life and finishes alone.
I waited for forgiveness,
For all of my quirks, for impatience for progress and understanding,
For ego and whatnot,
For all the fears and the worries that I had when I haven't realized everything is just an experience.
I waited to grow,
To see if things will stay the same
Or if there'll be any changes at all,
And I'm still waiting,
Mostly I just write about it all since that's the only way I'll get softer and cleaner.
I waited,
Like the earth waits for water,
Like a child that screams to the heavens
And I still wait every day, every single day.