(Today's nothing*, I don't have a name. Thousands of black butterflies are taking wing inside of me. Scattered by the wind like a leaf
My heart, is far away. My heart is missing.)
My silent, tired, heavy, eyelids are closing again... Again...
(My hands can almost touch the darkness.)
This city's ruined, shabby, walls are collapsing on me one by one again…
(I only hear voices..)
Again…
(Footsteps are far away..)
While flocks of birds leaving this city, leaving it behind again like a poor alone kid…
(I'm being quiet.)
Again…
(The silence is sharp..)
And fall is sneaking up, dragging a dog-like loneliness on me again…
(I'm waiting)
Again…
(The wait is sharp)
Promises are all lies! Forget about the oaths!
A goodbye is striking like a meaningless slap again…
(I need to go away)
To my face…
Songs are lies! Forget what you've heard!
A story is being scattered in the hands of the wind again…
(I must forget everything)
Again!
I cut! I bleeded out! Those black filthy lies running through my blood in my veins!
(My wrists doesn't hurt)
It didn't happen!
(They doesn't hurt at all)
I've erased! I took out! I've scraped off of my face those black deep writings you've carved on my face!
(My hands and palms doesn't hurt)
It didn't happen!
(Nothing's hurting me)
I threw up! I spitted those hurting memories which you left inside of me!
(My skin doesn't hurt, and it doesn't)
It didn't happen!
(The spots you've touched)
You've ripped! Over and over again I've stitched up my hurting wounds you've opened with your little hands!
(My heart doesn't hurt anymore)
It didn't happen!
(My heart)
What did you do to me… what… what…what did you do to me kid!
(I just kept quiet and still and watched the scars of my hands in the hands of an angel.)
Why… Why… Why did you do it to me oh kid!
(I just kept quiet and still and watched the ripping of my fate in the hands of an angel.)
What did you do to me… what… what…what did you do to me kid!
(I wanted to just keep quiet and still and watch my heart in the hands of an angel.)
Why… Why… Why did you do it to me oh kid!
(I just wanted to watch quietly, just to love an angel.)
I can't see, I can't hear I can't touch anymore kid!
(It's like something is always missing and something is always half and something is gone forever.)
I can't tell I can't tell anymore I can't cry kid!
(In the streets of this lost city there's no light nor song anymore)
I don't believe I don't believe anymore I can't believe kid!
(On the walls there's no name nor a readable sentence oh.)
I don't know I don't know anymore I can't love kid!
(I just kept quiet and still and watched my death in the hands of an angel.)
Neither rain, nor snow, nor the wind blowing to my face, the fall which is hurting me hasn't stopped yet kid!
(So white)
It didn't erase you kid!
(It was so blue)
This fire which started by the spilling sparkles of your burning eyelashes hasn't been gone out yet kid!
(It was so beautiful and so..)
It couldn't go out kid!
(So innocent but… )
In this ruin of a city, this ruin of a story isn't finished yet!
It's not it's not it's not kid!
(So wrong so…)
It couldn't be finished kid!
(So wrong and so… )
These weak songs, these weak prayers couldn't bring you back couldn't couldn't kid!
(and so kid)
You didn't come back kid!
(My heart…)
What did you do to me… what… what…what did you do to me kid!
(All the blues are dirty now and all the whites are ashamed and only to sleep)
Why did you do this… Why… Why… Why kid!?
(I want to sleep… )