Let me start by explaining it, let me tell you
All the shit we had together started as something which couldn't be conquered
Beautiful and innocent, but it ended up as something evil and pathetic
Jealousy, drama on top of drama, I'd never fucking wish
For my life to end up with all this shit, but here I am
On the TV tower at the last step, and I'm laughing, but I'm so embarrassed
That I wasted all of my time, because you could have been pregnant
With out child some day, but you chose to fuck off and leave me
I didn't look around until it was all over
I could scream with the last of my life on a bicycle path
But what can I do? You're your own master
Abandoned by everything, so it can't get much worse
No cash, no woman, nothing
Without a bed, it's convenient with a box as a home
I've got an umbrella to take shelter if a rain shower appears
Then that I can sit there and dream of summer peace
Some people said that you can't sleep in the city
But give my a roof over my head and I can sleep once more
With a cover without waking up and being sick
In my soul, in my head, and my body is heavier than lead
Looking up at the apartment we had
Where I was gathering stuff for our nest
Like a jay, now I'm the sinner of the streets
That's what I deserve, there's a reason she left
Far too many fights, far too much bullshit
Too many things I said but never did
Too many things I did but shouldn't have
But who knows, some day they'll see me
Try hanging yourself, then you'll know what I'm talking about
I'd wish you were here now, then you could feel for me
I'd take your hand so that I could die with you
'Cause everything's disappearing around me, becoming memories
I'd take your hand - life will never come back
I'd wish you were here now, then you could feel for me
I'd take your hand so that I could die with you
'Cause everything's disappearing around me, becoming memories
I'd take your hand - life will never come back
The last grain of sand in the hourglass on its way to the bottom
Both standing with bloodshot eyes, a bitter taste in our mouths
Everything we promised one another over time is now but a father's trust
A permeated fire raging at a devilish speed
My mere existence is in no way worth defending
A fucking nuisance who they wait for to shoot himself
But the devil is tricking me, not even he wants to be my friend
Left to my on devices, now my own prison is being filled with bad memories alone
I don't have energy to avoid it
Choosing to deny it, bloodshot eyes
A deluge of lies, creating unreal emotions
Solving conflicts with the smoke, scheming how to erase it
But hesitant to forget it, slobby people
Arose in the attempt, and born to skim
The reality which I don't know if it's real
The hate which has left its marks, my psyche about to crack
In the morning, I don't remember what I did the night before
Applying the bandage before I'm injured, letting the lies escalate
Running into old friends who reckon I'm not worth the trouble
A dumb bastard bundled with low self-esteem
And they back off as they point their fingers at me
Crying on the inside for faces, painting pictures of you
I'd wish you were here now, then you could feel for me
I'd take your hand so that I could die with you
'Cause everything's disappearing around me, becoming memories
I'd take your hand - life will never come back
I'd wish you were here now, then you could feel for me
I'd take your hand so that I could die with you
'Cause everything's disappearing around me, becoming memories
I'd take your hand - life will never come back