The air smells of gunpowder,
The streets are empty tonight.
Proud people, losers,
smiling people and deluded ones.
All of those who came to the party
are now singing altogether,
kids nowadays don't care
about what the future holds!
Tonight I forgive your sin,
but bad thoughts are running through my mind.
I don't have space on my paper to right
something to beat them no matter how much I'm trying.
And this is my last sheet,
like my notebook which is my last friend,
like my last half empty pen.
Remorse is bruising my mind, but
tonight I'm righting the most glorious defeat,
tonight I'm saying the things I never said,
tonight I'm glad I was the first one to lose,
tonight I had a better time alone...
And you wouldn't say I'm fine lately,
but I have no idea why...
At night the skeletons come out of my closet
and I go "good, I needed some company!"
Blood is dripping on the floor,
but no one's wish is coming true tonight.
Just like last year this is not my year,
I enclosed you in my heart,
but you were claustrophobic.
By now I've learnt how to lose,
and I'm enjoying it.
My fears wore white sheets
and became ghosts
that are searching for the winner!
Let loose and lose!
See, I said it to them and it became a slogan,
I saw the change in their eyes.
I saw the world becoming beautiful,
the rain washed away the sins.
Because it's okay to not be okay,
because we didn't come to win,
but to fight and everyday
we breathe is a small win.
I won't be the one to get you out of hell,
but I'll get the hell out of you.
I know what thorns blooming from the street
while you're walking feels like.
And tonight the cement is talking
about the noose I had knitted for me
but I preferred to wrap it around the king's neck.
Tell me, what are they expecting us to become?
I'm writing this for those who don't feel well,
I dedicate it to the Schism 1
to the lost kids who know what sorrow is.
They know, I told them,
as long as we exist, there's hope.
They know, I told them,
you have to lose first in order to win.
Editor's note, we almost made it
even though what we brought might not be enough.
We're not who you wanted us to be, we know,
but we're not sorry for being different!
And when I hurt, I sing
"No matter how low I fall, I never look down"
I said... I said...
And when I hurt, I sing
"No matter how low I fall, I never look down"
So!
And you wouldn't say I'm fine lately,
but I have no idea what's wrong...
At night the skeletons come out of my closet
and I go "good, I needed some company!"
Blood is dripping on the floor,
but no one's wish is coming true tonight.
Just like last year this is not my year,
I enclosed you in my heart,
but you were claustrophobic.
By now I've learnt how to lose,
and I'm enjoying it.
My fears wore white sheets
and became ghosts
that are searching for the winner!
Let loose and lose!
And I'm in the center of your mind,
scaring the crows that are your fears,
as if I'm a scarecrow...
For every day you paint black the sky you have inside of you.
For every moment that can't come back which gets mirrored in the rain.
I'll take care of you,
like a silent prayer...
Whisper the verse and I'll be there.
1. the name of Solmeister's fanbase