Adam Gibi [English translation]

I never loved you

I loved the songs we listened in the exhausted nights

I loved the way you smiled at me, the way you resembled a rose

And also I loved the stars

which appeared in april nights

hanging in your eyes

I loved getting apart when you send me away

I loved the bullets when you shot me

I loved crying when you forgot me

When I realized that I am alone

I loved the way I kept standing.

I loved my collapse whenever I remembered you.

I miss your voice as I desıre water in the August sun.

As the rain in the afternoon

As the wind blows in the night, I loved loving you

But I never loved you

I loved the way you teaching me

The way you speak to me

The way you remind me to April

Of the fact that another name of the spring is not loneliness

I loved the bleeding wounds of falling

And your strange look when you are cold.

I loved the smile whenever you won

I fell in fire like a rose fell in the sea

I loved the fire whenever I burned like this.

But I never loved you

One night, a gazelle descended from the mountain into your heart

One night, like a poem, in the flame of a match

At the middle of everyone, in the voice of desolation

In the fog of the morning, in the brutality of a sigh

On the crying face of Jesus

With the relaxing power of a prayer

Swearing on fig, on olive and on heart

Swearing on rose

Swearing on hope that I am holding

Swearing on fear, on you

Swearing on everything, but always on you

But I never loved you

I loved your going when you went

I loved the entire universe when you get back

I did not love your staying with me

I was afraid of getting accustomed to you.

Still I loved your smile

when I waved after you going away

When the first snow fell on the meadows

I loved how beautiful the death was

When I killed you inside my heart

But I never loved you

If I loved you

I love like crazy

I will write poems for you

I willl bring down the moon and give you the sun

When I love you

I LOVE LIKE A MAN.