Now I see happiness and pride topple
The self-confidence becomes big clouds of worry
That obscures my splendid open sky
So that I no longer see
Through my strained opening in the obscurity of knowing
That I've so carefully built and dragged
Up in the thought's heavy mass
Take a firmer grip around something firmer than me
I wanted more I wanted to do it again
I wanted to learn the new and look at it with bright eyes
Learn from other people's sorrow
And not look at myself as going the wrong or right way
But there are days when I crawl inside my body and hide
You have the words that drain me you have the power to burn me
Until the only thing I have left is the courage to leave
Your eyes are clear and your voice is brittle
Turn your gaze away, gaze full of fire
Lying on the floor and trying to be a child
Helpless we stand in front of our selves
When you reach for more
what is it you feel and what is it you see
we fall haphazardly until we fall apart
but we see through that and can be what we are
But there are days when I crawl inside my body and hide
You have the words to drain me you have the power to burn me
Until the only thing I have left is the courage to leave
There are thoughts that slip by and never return
There are thoughts that hold my feelings accountable
Want to be exactly what you believe, what you believe I am
But I believe what I want and if you believe in this
We both wanted to pull but in different directions
We both wanted to go but not at the same time
And the blame is ours with emphasis on me
Should keep this short, but keep falling for you