I want to walk around with the lights turned off
Without feeling that I have to pretend how I feel
I want to walk barefoot around the whole house
And cry away the pain here, in my room
Ignoring the calls from the people who save me
It's not that they won't relieve me of all of this pain
The silence is just what's needed sometimes
I want to be with me, today
Let me stay alone
Let life slam the door on my chest
And let me shatter, into pieces,
Everything that's protected me for so long
Let me cry the pain away and feel alive
When I'm finally dead
I'll only enjoy the summit if I live in the deep end
Even if it's just for a moment
Even if it's just for a moment
I chose my clothes with nobody in mind
This old shirt that's so stretched out
And I'm going from the sofa to my bed without showering
Today, I put my blame
I left a sign on the window
That said "Closed for construction"
And even though I know everything will change tomorrow
I want to be with me today
Let me stay alone
Let life slam the door on my chest
And let me shatter, into pieces,
Everything that's protected me for so long
Let me cry the pain away and feel alive
When I'm finally dead
I'll only enjoy the summit if I live in the deep end
Even if it's just for a moment
Even if it's just for a moment
Today I want to have my tears set alight
Let the wound run through my life
No more looking after myself, no more cleaning
Let me fall because today, I want to lose
Let me stay alone
Let life slam the door on my chest
And let me shatter, into pieces,
Everything that's protected me for so long
Let me cry the pain away and feel alive
When I'm finally dead
I'll only enjoy the summit if I live in the deep end
Even if it's just for a moment
Even if it's just for a moment
Let me cry the pain away, let me me feel alive